I am in the middle of a flare up…which means that my pain level has increased to an 8/9 and all my other sidekicks are working overtime; Headache, Pins & Needles (they are twins), Exhaustion, beautiful Ear Ringing and Vertigo & Dizziness (some people drink to get this effect…me, I “enjoy” it without drinking) just to name a few.
I am not sure what has triggered this flare…maybe the cold I had or the flu and TDAP shot the doc gave me the last week…or maybe the sky being blue or the dog down the street barking. There is no rhyme or reason for any of it. I am just so tired of feeling this way….but I’m getting ready to put on my magic shoes (slippers) and prance upstairs (slowly moving and probably a little grimacing…ok a lot) and do the little bit that I left in the kitchen last night (who wants to come up with a self cleaning kitchen with me…I promise to forget every task I need to do…but it will come back to me at 3 am).
This week I lay here contemplating world domination…DUN DUN DUN…yep that’s all I’ve got…pretty anti climatic huh? Seems to be the norm for me…go to bed and have all these wonderful ideas about the projects I’m gonna do the next day…and then it happens…no really it does…I can’t get a pain free position or my mind races with all those ideas…so I don’t sleep much at all…then I get up and WOW! I’ve never been one that needed a lot of sleep (I think that I could give Rip Van Winkle a run for his money IF I could actually sleep). Then the sun makes an appearance along with Millie (my Goofy Girl…boxer baby) shoving her face in mine and Dingo (Dingbat) putting his head on my stomach…which by the way all of those are so welcome…but that list I created of all the things I wanted to do…either Millie ate it or it was hit by lightening because none of it is happening…it doesn’t mean I don’t want to do it…it just means I don’t have enough spoons to do any of it. So, at least for this week, the world is safe (and probably every other week…but I’m gonna continue to plan because you know…someday)
I am super blessed that I have King Dork (the Clyde to my Bonnie) he is amazing…he lifts me up when I’m feeling like I just can’t go on. He is my rock…I don’t know what I’d do with out him (but there are days when he annoys the hell out of me…I know that feeling is mutual). However, I do tend to push myself a little too much because I love being with him…I love our little adventures, but they take A LOT out of me…they are all worth it but I really need to remind myself…KD asks if I’m up to it, but I always say no problem cuz you know I’m Wonder Woman after all.
We have 7 kids … I keep thinking how cool it would be to have all 7 of our kids over one day and have a let’s help the parental units day. I’d make a list of major chores need to be done that KD doesn’t have time for and I don’t have the strength or energy to do and then recruit them all to help do it one day…has to be the same day or what was already completed would be undone by the time the others came…and I wouldn’t get to enjoy it. Wonder how much arguing there would be? Maybe I will try that…hahahahahahahahaha…I will feed that idea to Millie…hopefully it taste good…but really doesn’t matter…she eats EVERYTHING!
Gonna go seize the day…or the pillow…it will be a surprise 🙂