[141.1] ~*Sun – 12/10/17*~

[7:04 pm]

I think I’m feeling better. I’m for sure feeling way better than this morning but I think I might finally be starting to actually feel better. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow after another good night sleep. The manager at the store texted me to see if I was gonna go work tomorrow or not. Like, hello?! I can’t tell you right at this moment how I will be feeling tomorrow evening. Duh! Blah! I’m so sick and tired of working at the store, I really need to get out of there. I know it’s Xmas time and it’s crazier but still, it’s just too much. I need to find a job where I’m not in charge and where they don’t expect so much out of you. Once New Year is here, I’ll be looking for a new job. I just hope I’ll be able to find one as I only want it for Sunday’s.

Beside that, I’m a bit bored right now. I’m currently watching a show but seem that just watching a show isn’t enough for me. I need to also be doing something else to really keep me busy. I normally play my farming game as I watch shows but right now I’m pretty much all done what I can do on it so yea. I need to find a new game to play on my phone or a game to play on the PC as we have two screens so I could be playing a game and watching a show at the same time. I just don’t know what game I’d like to play. I think it’s better if I try to find an offline game so that way I won’t become competitive and upset when other people levels more than I do because they have more free time than I do.

I’d also like to find a paying hobby. I told my friend today that I would like to start doing something with her as a hobby that could possibly make money out of. I just have no idea what we could possibly make for fun and make a few bucks on the side. I know she’s been wanting to make wreaths but can we really make those all year around and make money out of them?! I guess we could make some for each Holidays, I just don’t know if people would buy them.

For some reason, I’m also thinking about this Journal right now. How I always put a picture of a fairy and how I always try to have colors that matches the image. I don’t know if I want to keep up with it as soon enough I will run out of pictures as there is just so many out there. Although, if I end up putting the same one more than one, it’s not a big deal. I’m just not sure about the colors as sometimes it can be hard on the eyes. I might just stop the colors but keep the images. I might also, maybe, put other stuff than just fairies. I just don’t know… for some weird reason I’m thinking about it and it’s just driving me nuts that I don’t know what I want to do with it when it’s just something really silly as the most important thing is the actual Journal and not the “beauty” around it. It’s just how I am. Knowing myself, with the New Year coming it wouldn’t surprise me that I would just start a whole new Journal all together just so I don’t have to deal with the change. Bleh! Being me is so exhausting.

I really don’t know why I’m making this a big deal right now but I’m just thinking to myself, it’s nothing big as you just put a pic and some colors. The only annoying part of doing so is when I don’t write from the PC or write in a hurry, then I don’t really have time to set up a pic or colors and sometimes I get a few days where I need to go back and put those. That’s when I ask myself why I go through all the trouble. I just feel so dumb right now talking about it. Why can’t I just write and not bother about the rest around it.




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