Is it wrong that I don’t feel the need to be with someone? Or to even find someone to be in a relationship with? My close friend’s boyfriend recently broke up with her, but for some reason she did not feel entirely emotionally stricken and hung up about it. She just immediately jumped into online dating apps and any dating websites she can find to try and find another guy. It seemed so odd to me since I never felt that I truly needed to find a boyfriend or a guy that desperately. She made it seem as though being single would be the worst thing in the world that could happen to her. I tried to calm her down and let her know that sometimes a breakup isn’t the end of the world. She can use the extra time she had to learn to love herself and become independently strong, but instead she ran for the dating apps so fast, like East Meet East, Tinder, Ok Cupid, etc. I just wonder if something is wrong with me too since apparently everyone can relate to why she prefers to be with someone else, anybody else rather than be single like I am. I know we are both different people with different traits, but I just found it really odd. I am 23 years old, I know I’m not that old yet, but I just wonder if I truly should try to get back into the game and find someone I can connect with. I did make a Tinder too, but I already decided not to feel too attached to anybody I meet through it since I don’t trust people that easily either mainly because I learned to be overprotective about my own self. I just wonder if anyone else feels the same way I do, if at all?
Decided to create a journal in order to free all the ideas trapped in my head. I have recently learned to love myself again after losing who I was for so long. As of now, I just want to expand my horizons and see the world in other people's eyes.