Today is the last day of school before winter break. I don’t know how I will fill my days for those two weeks. I guess I can be working on my plans for next semester. My principal has asked me to give up one of my plans to serve as a substitute next semester. I would get paid $1600, but that’s not worth it- the only reason I would do it is because she asked me to and I want her to like me. Not for $1600, which would be about $20 a paycheck.
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."