OK so recently i have been stressing over things a lot. Things like school, college applications, and the relationship with my boyfriend. It all ways down on me after a while and it makes me just want to crawl in a hole and die or to just lay in bed all day and sleep to get away from my reality. Like right now i am supposed to be picking a topic for my college essay but here i am writing this instead. While doing this i am also watching anime to distract myself. I know it is bad and that i should be being productive but i can’t really concentrate on anything right now. so here i am basically wasting my life away on my bed doing nothing important. Oh well, that’s just how it is i guess. I was thinking about using this journal as a way to practice my writing for college or assignments or for books that i might plan to write in the future. I guess i’ll see how this turns out. Bye for now.