Should I feel this way?

I literally can not shake the feeling, or thought, that maybe if I was skinnier, I wouldn’t be single for so, SO long. And no, don’t get the wrong idea.. I don’t need someone to be happy, but going through such a bad relationship in the past, feeling alone through it, feeling like I was nothing. Like I didn’t matter, and it being a year since that breakup happened.. it would just be so nice to have someone that cared.. All of my friends have someone. I feel totally alone, in such a big world. Like, I’m a good girl, good morals, I’m pretty, I’m fun, I’m loyal, but seriously I feel like what keeps me single is the fact that I have a few extra pounds. And that’s sad.. I have no idea if that’s true, or if I just haven’t met someone. But I catch myself thinking so frequently.. “dang, it would be nice to have someone here at this Christmas party with me.” Or, “I wish I had someone to go home and cuddle up and watch a movie with when I leave here.” I don’t know why it’s so hard these days to actually find someone, who is just as loyal as you are. It’s so weird that I felt alone in that relationship, and betrayed, and as bad as I fear being done wrong, I want that special someone so bad. I hate being told “I’m young, I’ll find someone eventually” okay patricia but I’m a 22 year old who is way past meaningless sex and hookups. Dead ends roads, and bad reputations.  I am so ready for something real. I feel almost depressed over the only thing that keeps me single is my body, because my body isn’t perfect. Is that true ? 

3 thoughts on “Should I feel this way?”

  1. So when I was 20 I got dumped by this guy I really liked, probably loved. He dumped me after telling me he loved me, oh and we dated for a month. It took me sooo long to get over it. After that I took a lot of time of wanting to be single and getting to know myself. I went on trips alone, I started working out and eating healthy. That was the best time of my life, and im 23. ahah. Now im dating a guy, that I love so much. My point is, go out and do whatever you want. Keep being the person you are, and I swear, you will be found or fine someone. As far as losing a couple pounds, theres nothing wrong about having extra fat here and there. Just be healthy obvi. If you’re doing already working out, maybe give it a try? It helped me boost my confidence and meet my guy.

  2. I am 31 and by the time I was 22 I had two children and weight was an issue let me tell ya! But no matter my size big *in my eyes* or as of lately a 0 big switch for me… men are men and if they are going to be an ass they will.. size has nothing to do with it when you find a “real” love it wont matter… now if you want to lose a few because you feel you would feel better as in healthier then go for it but do not change yourself in hopes it will help you find love because you should not have to change yourself for ANYONE to be truly loved! Just keep finding the reasons you are that awesome person who deserves it and it will find you when you least expect it! I just got out of a 2 year extremely abusive relationship after a failed marriage and engagement… love knows no age.. never know when it will come! keep your head up!

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