I literally can not shake the feeling, or thought, that maybe if I was skinnier, I wouldn’t be single for so, SO long. And no, don’t get the wrong idea.. I don’t need someone to be happy, but going through such a bad relationship in the past, feeling alone through it, feeling like I was nothing. Like I didn’t matter, and it being a year since that breakup happened.. it would just be so nice to have someone that cared.. All of my friends have someone. I feel totally alone, in such a big world. Like, I’m a good girl, good morals, I’m pretty, I’m fun, I’m loyal, but seriously I feel like what keeps me single is the fact that I have a few extra pounds. And that’s sad.. I have no idea if that’s true, or if I just haven’t met someone. But I catch myself thinking so frequently.. “dang, it would be nice to have someone here at this Christmas party with me.” Or, “I wish I had someone to go home and cuddle up and watch a movie with when I leave here.” I don’t know why it’s so hard these days to actually find someone, who is just as loyal as you are. It’s so weird that I felt alone in that relationship, and betrayed, and as bad as I fear being done wrong, I want that special someone so bad. I hate being told “I’m young, I’ll find someone eventually” okay patricia but I’m a 22 year old who is way past meaningless sex and hookups. Dead ends roads, and bad reputations. I am so ready for something real. I feel almost depressed over the only thing that keeps me single is my body, because my body isn’t perfect. Is that true ?