Spoiler alert: I don’t actually know the answer to this question, it’s mostly rhetorical.
I have a bad memory. (I’m not sure how long my memory has been bad exactly, my husband was the first to notice it. We’ve been together since we were 18 so it’s possible it’s always been like this.) I started this journal looking for a sort of anonymous outlet to be a bit more open and honest then after only a few entries I deleted the app and I can’t remember why. I checked my physical journal and no mention there either. I know that I hit an apathetic funk around that time and things have been a bit on the crazy side for a while so who knows. I’m usually pretty good at figuring out the reason for my behaviors but this one has me puzzled. This is probably why I need to get better at writing shit down. Maybe this is a promise to be more consistent? Can I even keep that sort of promise? I’m mostly just figuring things out as I go… I guess we’ll find out together.