Today is not a good feelings day. I’m not sure why, but I just feel down about everything today. As I searched for something to distract my mind and feelings, I decided to catch up on Riverdale. I used to watch it with Dino, my ex, but we never watched the latest episode. I don’t feel as guilty watching it today, but I still feel bad. I don’t know. It’s hard going through the motions after a break-up. I mean, we were together for just over three years. It just feels weird to do things alone that we used to do together. I don’t know. Maybe I’ll update later today, but I just needed some time to vent.
I kinda feel like I’m just violently depressed. Maybe I need to see a therapist or a psychiatrist so I can be put on medication. It’s not the breakup causing this. I think the breakup just made it so I don’t have a distraction from my mental health. I’m not focusing on fixing the relationship, and instead have to focus on my own brain and my own thoughts and feelings and fix those.