I’ve been going to bed earlier at night, but I keep tossing and turning all night. This became evident last night as I woke up four or five times, praying to myself that it was 2 o’clock or 3 o’clock. I haven’t been sleeping well because of this, despite having vivid dreams and my eyes being closed. I’m certainly not entering REM sleep or any kind of deep sleep. Therefore when I got home today from work, I ended up taking a nap for two hours. I doubt this will help my sleep tonight but I’m still pretty exhausted. Maybe it was because the students returned today and I was actually doing my actual job today. I’m also very grumpy today. I texted my ex and got very upset when he left me on read. This was very frustrating for me, and I have no real reason as to why. I think it was because I wanted to have a conversation and he chose to just ignore me, which really irked me. I mean, I’m only somewhat irked that Nolan hasn’t texted me back, but this is normal behavior for both my ex and for Nolan. I also didn’t hear much from the EMT today, and did my best not to blow up his phone. I did text him a few minutes ago, knowing that he is probably on duty and let him know plans for Friday night, and invited him to join us for drinks. I know that Monica will have her boyfriend there, and Lexi will probably have someone there, and I’ll be the oddball with no one to drink or dance with. I didn’t tell him all of this, instead just choosing to invite him out, letting him know that I know he is probably working that night. I don’t know, I don’t want to come off as needy. He’s a lot of fun to talk to and stuff, so I kind of don’t want to mess any of that up. I have a reputation for messing things up and being stupid like that. Anyway, I have messages coming in from Nolan and Tinder right now, and I’m falling asleep at the keys. I think I’m going to go lay down and answer everyone while cuddling my puppy.
Here's a copy and pasted version of my tinder bio: Recent psychology graduate who works with 7th and 8th graders, loves long drives, can watch scary movies for house (but really any movies), wants to travel everywhere. Also love reading and gaming (PC, xBox, and tabletop). I also have a relationship with food, so I hope you're okay with that.