So I’ve been going through a lot recently and I decided I should try and write it all out. So this may turn out to be quite a ride and quite an adventure but hey that’s my life for ya. So let’s start from the beginning before I get too deep.
I am a single mom to an amazing daughter. She is my pride and joy and very unexpected. Her father and I are not together nor have we ever been. We were just “friends” that ended up having a child together. Sadly he doesn’t have much to do with her, which is ok because my dad has been the constant role model for her since the day she was born. Honestly though I couldn’t have asked for anyone better.
I have always been the girl that never wanted children and I never wanted to get married. Ive had my funeral planned long before my wedding which sounds really disturbing but thats just the way its been my whole life. My pregnancy wasn’t an easy one, not due to complications but due to the stressful situation I was in. When I met my childs father he was getting a divorce, so neither one of us were looking for anything serious. Crazy enough I’ve known him since I was 15 which was a long time ago. While he was going through his divorce I was trying to hide from the loss of my grandma who was really the only grandparent I’ve ever known, by drinking all the time. I was drunk every day for at least 2 years. Then I found out I was pregnant….
I legit sat down and wrote down the option of adoption and keeping her. I decided I could provide for her everything an adopted family could. I have always had an open and loving communication with my family and I knew no matter their disappointment they would have my back 100%. I was still so terrified to tell my parents so I waited until my moms birthday ( I figured shed be in a good mood) boy was that the wrong decision. I had taken a picture of the pregnancy test and I showed it to my mom who promptly started screaming at me, and cryin, and then stormed off to her room and slammed her door shut with the words ” I cant even look at y0u”.
Needless to say I was devastated! So there I was sobbing my heart out waiting for my dad to come home so I could tell him that I was pregnant. A few hours later my dad came home to me sobbing and to my mom sobbing and slamming shit around. Right away he starts freaking out and was asking who died, to which I replied through sobs that I was pregnant. His response is something I’ll never forget, he said ” Oh honey don’t you know this is a blessing. You’re bringing in a new life and I couldn’t be happier. Dry those tears and know you have our full support.” Right then I knew I made the best decision of my life.
To say the road was long and full of stress doesn’t even cover it…stay tuned for the rest!