I don’t know. I’m tired

Have you ever thought of leaving everything behind and start from the very beginning? A fresh start, where nobody knows you and vice versa. A place, where you could start from scratch, no burden, no regret. I do. Why? Even i don’t know the real reason. At least that what i knew. For sure. I have a great parents, great sister, great brother, great friend (they aren’t fake), i don’t struggle with money. Or maybe i was just ungrateful. Overtime i feel burdensome every time i wake up, getting productive, socialise, go to collage, go to work. Just a repetitive routine. Every single day. 

Once I thought of me getting kidnapped by someone and become their slave or got sold. Maybe my life were better that way. Maybe i won’t feel empty anymore. Maybe i won’t struggling with my anxiety every single second. Maybe just maybe.

They said “People who laugh the most are the saddest one” Am i? Haha.. I’m just babbling at this point. I don’t have the urge to end my life though or not yet(?). They told me that i just thought to much. Even the doctor said the same thing. Stress was the reason….

Life is stressful. I envied everyone. They have a better life than mine.

Good night,


One thought on “I don’t know. I’m tired”

  1. Maybe your heart is yearning for more. Do more. Be happy go where your heart is.

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