I looked around on the district web site and I did find something about jobs being posted for 30 days. I don’t know if that actually means they don’t start interviewing until the 30 days are up, though. I really hope I will get an interview at least. Okay, I just emailed Faith again. I hope she responds. And responds positively. I REALLY want this job! I know I would be great at it. I am feeling really anxious again- more yesterday than today, though. I am going to stay at this school until I get a job downtown or retire, which ever comes first. There is no need to move schools again. I will just stay here. I worked on my bills and finances this morning. I am going to try to get my shit together in that aspect again. I have been terrible about keeping up with stuff. I used to not be that way. I am going to get it together again. I am going to start writing down my monthly bills with the dates I paid them- using the tracking sheet I used before. I ordered myself that desk, so when I get it, maybe I get get my shit organized again.
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."