There’s only so long you can be miserable before you finally fade away, piece by piece, never to be seen again.
It’s been too long. I don’t wanna live like this anymore. There’s no escape anymore, I don’t wanna sing, I don’t wanna play guitar, I don’t feel like doing anything, besides lying there mourning about my life.
My sense of self is gone, my humor’s gone, my personality’s gone and I’m not me anymore. I’m this lifeless girl with big brown pearls for eyes that are shallow as they can be.
I used to try so hard, to fight back, reminding myself that eventually it’ll pass. Things will get better. I constantly forced myself to not take the easy way out.
But it’s hard when it’s the only way out.