I’ve been feeling rather invisible these days. At work and online. The online part is kind of funny because I tend to just stay in the background and not comment or do anything like that, but when I do comment, I get nothing. No comments back, no likes on Facebook…it’s like I don’t exist. I commented on a friend’s (well, I thought she was a friend) post about feeling invisible and she at least liked every other comment but mine. Mine got nothing. And it was up for a day and there was other comments after it, so it’s not like it had only been up for a little while or maybe she hadn’t seen it yet. *sigh* And with work? I’ll try to talk to someone and get ignored. Or they’ll just talk to someone else. And it hasn’t just been one person or one time. Multiple times and different people. I couldn’t count anyone at work as a friend. Only one I could really talk to is mom (yeah, I work with my mother). It’s just all really depressing the shit out of me.
In better news, Thursday I’m going to go down to the community college and see what I have to do to get into classes for this semester (and maybe for the summer). I also need to ask about my financial aid. Luckily I got financial aid done for next year but I don’t know what’s happening with it for this semester. I just want to start into classes as soon as possible. That might mean taking some of my refund and using that for classes but it would be worth it. It would also mean no bike :(. Oh well, classes would serve me better in the long run.
There’s really not much else going on. I went to my first therapy session last Thursday and though I was disappointed to find out how short they expect it to be, they’re going to help me with a goal of mine. I really need to find long-term therapy though. But this therapy should help me become more sociable and maybe I won’t feel invisible anymore. Here’s hoping.
OK, time for a shower. I walked to the grocery store near us and though it was chilly outside, I still got sweaty. Plus, I have to work tonight and I’ve become not the biggest fan of showers just before work because I feel like I have to rush to get ready afterwards. I wish I didn’t take such long showers but I can’t figure out how to shorten them. So into the shower I go. Till we meet again.