I’ve lost Ian. I fell in love with him so fast. Why do I always lose every guy I fall for. I’m absolutely repulsive and ugly. I’ll never find a man who wants me. Ian had me so fooled that he really liked me and he wanted to be with me possibly long term. He’s even an alcoholic…I can’t even catch a loser like that. I wish I could keep Ian. I love him and think he is so handsome and great in bed. He always took the time to make sure I had and hard orgasm, every time. I can’t even get him to have an orgasm and he still says he was happy. Why couldn’t I keep him and earn his love.