Today’s been a weird day emotionally. Driving home at noon…suddenly hit with the overwhelming urge to cry about him. And again now. It’s very hard to live with so much sadness. Even my sister told me it was weird. Honestly I feel like I don’t want to live if I have to live feeling this way forever. It’s so hard on my heart. I feel like I’m dying from a broken heart. I feel like I’m not getting better, just going sideways. But I don’t want to die.