Recovery: Going well. I still pray every day. I’m working my 8th step now. See my therapist weekly and correspond with him daily including sending him my daily gratitude list. This journal is part of my program too. Meditation and lots of reading.
I’m sponsoring a young man now who is new, which makes me feel really good. I”m also helping set up a meeting in another city with a man who reached out to my therapist, who is the local addiction specialist.
Relationship: Going better all the time. Not perfect by any stretch, but we are working on it. I’ve figured out one big restriction: My wife calls me often and I call her too, though not nearly as often as I used to. She stated clearly that she doesn’t want me to do that, but the real time I’m not to call her is when she is with her AA friends. It’s really that simple. The honest gist of it is, she can do whatever she wants and expects me to do what she wants me to do too. Now I’m not bitching about this. We’re working on it and she too is changing. She cannot be with me going through the changes I am, without herself changing too. Not possible.
Work: One of our team left the firm and her accounts have been absorbed by the rest of us. I’m busy but in a good way. Challenged and I make a little more money. I like where I work for the first time in a very long time. This is the first job since I was around 21 years old, where I leave at 5:00 o’clock with no guilt.
Dreams: Am I entitled to any now? It’s not something I’ve thought about forever, but I need to have goals and dreams. So I guess that dream would be that we buy this new duplex and repair all the tremendous problems it has and make more money. The dream is that our then 7 rental properties will provide for us in retirement. So retiring is going to be a dream in about 10 years. Travel. I miss Europe and Asia and elsewhere. I want to get to travel internationally again with my wife. A bigger dream would be to take our kids too, but I don’t see how we could ever afford that. Maybe though. Pickleball tournaments with my wife is also a dream. We love the game and it’s a real shared interest, which is vital for our relationship too.
So I think I’m going to have a good day today.