Febuary 12, 2018
Tonight has been a rough one so far, but it’s partly my own fault.
I went to bed way too late….even though I knew I had to work all day tomorrow.
I didn’t take any sleep-aid like I normally do, because I already felt very tired and I thought this might be an occasion when I might not need it.
When I first went to bed, these intrusive spirit attachments were harassing me to some degree, but it wasn’t too intense and I thought that I would simply fall asleep soon enough.
It didn’t quite work out that way.
What did happen was that I fell into that half-asleep/ half-awake state that I seem to find myself lingering in every now and again.
When I’m in this in-between state, I lose all sense of time it seems, but eventually these spirit attachments started harassing me at a much more intense level…..mainly with the physical disturbances.
This was around three in the morning.
Since I have to work tomorrow (today now technically), I didn’t want to take any sleep-aid at that point, because I didn’t want to risk over sleeping and being late for work.
I tried to fall asleep again, but it was no good.
So, here I am at four in the morning now. I have to be at work in a few hours, so I think I’ll drink a lot of coffee to revive myself as much as I can.
The voices have calmed down some, but they are still present.
The physical disturbances have stopped for now.
I’ve mentioned this before…..when I’m in that half-awake / half-asleep state, these entities seem to have more ability to mess with me.
Tonight it definitely seemed like they waited until I was in that state to escalate things.
I keep saying that I’d like to reach a point where I’m not so reliant on the sleep-aid anymore.
But, I suppose that nights like this one might be an indication that I’m simply not ready yet.
So, there will be no sleep for me tonight…..none at all.
These spirit attachments certainly played a part in that, but really I blame myself as well. I shouldn’t have stayed up as late as I did and have taken a gamble of going without the sleep-aid.
It was especially stupid of me to do this on a night when I had to work the next day.
I’ll be paying for it all day tomorrow I’m sure.