Well, he backed out on me. He says he would love to live next door but not with me. I guess I’m still too repulsive for someone to want. My own family hates me. I’ve managed to run off the best thing that ever happened to me in less than 10 days. I guess it’s time to face facts that I’m going to be alone forever. I would rather die than have to live like this forever. I can’t go through life alone any more. I’ve had a taste of what I’m missing and I’ll never find this again….a man who is kind and gentle and satisfies me in bed and is willing to hug and cuddle me. I will completely lose him on March 3rd.