I need to get my shit together. Ian hasn’t given me any reason to doubt him. He can have female friends and not want to mess around with them just like I can have male friends without messing with them. All my male friends are married and live a long way off. He keeps telling me he likes what we have together. Ok so his sex drive hit the skids. That doesn’t mean anything. He’s been sick just like I have. We made love this morning and it was good. I just need to curb my sexual appetite and be happy I’ve got someone to have it with. He’s a good man. I’m just scared that when we move over to the other motel he wont want to see me any more. He keeps reassuring me that’s not going to be the case. He enjoys my company and cuddling. I should be thankful that he likes that and being affectionate. I’ve never found a man that seems to love cuddling and being affectionate as he does. He even likes Murray and Murray absolutely loves him. He’s even willing to come to our circle celebrations to learn about my beliefs.