Starting over

There are so many things to write about right now, like right this second…. too many…. I really feel like I can’t do this anymore. What I mean by “this” is live…. I’m just done with it…. he’s never going to be completely honest so I’m never going to trust him. This is not happy…. It’s been almost 3 years and I’m still wondering if he ever did love me, or if he does now. Im going to try to start over…. with this journal anyway…. there is way too much to write about for today so tomorrow is a new day and the beginning of my new journal…. I’m going to sleep feeling nauseous and wondering what the fuck he’s doing in the bathroom, with his phone attached to his body…. I don’t know if I can get through this night, more so if I even want to anymore.

Goodnight journal

3 thoughts on “Starting over”

  1. I understand your struggles. Not in that certain situation, but I understand the thought of not wanting to live anymore. What gets me by is by remembering that if I keep pushing through, eventually things get better. Yes, I don’t believe that, but I trust that eventually I will. I’m going through a lot of hard times too, but I know that I will make it through time. Keep your head up, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. We’ll both survive:)

  2. I totally understand what its like to be lied to. unless you are cheating and lying too, it isn’t fair you and you don’t deserve it. I know what its like to catch him in lies and wonder what else hes lying about. trust me, its never going to end. if that’s the type of person he is, he’ll never change. he needs to love and appreciate what he has, otherwise, leave him and don’t look back.

  3. Wow, thanks you guys! Y’alls 2 comments are right…. And I appreciate it…. I feel like I’m going crazy sometimes, like for real…

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