I’m starting to believe I will be alone for the rest of my life. Maybe I was suppose to only be a mom. Maybe because of the choices I made in my past I am being punished. I have asked for forgiveness. I believe my Lord has forgiven me but I still have to face the punishment.
I want to be loved so badly. Every single day I wish I had that special man in my life. Don’t get me wrong Kareem is my world and I would die for him but loving my son is completly different loving a man who you want to be your partner in life.
I’m 41 years old and never been married. I have a wonderful son but his dad is not in our lives and I am completly fine with that. Besides he has his own family when we got together. Yes I knew but it was too late. I was already in love with him. I have no regrets being with Kareem’s dad. I got the very best part of Kareem’s dad.
I’ve been going on these dating websites. It’s no different. Just another way to be rejected by men. I get it. When you email someone and he doesn’t return the email he’s not interested and to move on. I just want to love and be loved. I thought by the time I got to be the age I am I would have the husband, and family Ive dreamed of. I have the child but I’m missing the rest. Maybe I am having a pity party tonight but like I’ve said before I’m tired of being lonely.
Until next time : )