I just caught Ian red handed. There are texts showing that Ian was meeting with that bitch and having sex. I don’t want to confront him. I don’t want to lose him. I guess that means in 2 or 3 weeks when we or he moves back to siegal I’m gone and she’s in. God I am so stupid. I should have never met him to start with. I wouldn’t have found out how fantastic a man could treat me or in bed or out. I guess I was right, I don’t deserve happiness. And I screwed up my one chance at love with my ex husband. He cheated too. I’m going to be alone forever. I wish the chance at happiness hadn’t been dangled in front of me and jerked away. I can’t believe it can be so wonderful. But I’ve lost it and I’ll never find it again. I’m through trying. I just can’t get hurt again. I guess it’s just me and Murray from now on.