I know I haven’t written in like a week. But I started wondering if anyone even reads it anymore. I don’t know why I obsess over stupid things like comments. But if I don’t get a comment I get bummed out. That’s one of the things I hate about having a public diary. You don’t technically KNOW if anyone’s reading if they don’t comment. You could have 5 people reading, 500 people reading, or absolutely nobody reading. You don’t know. But maybe that’s the point. That people can fly under the radar. Read what they want. Comment on what they want. And noone has to know. Not if they don’t want them to.
My sex life has been pretty stellar. Last week Jordan lit a candle and we fucked really hard and rough but then all of a sudden he asked me if we could “pretend it was like old times” and we went soft and sweet and slow. Like all the times we made love back when we were together. Afterward he admitted to me that he really did enjoy our relationship. But he made me promise that him saying that wouldn’t make me think differently of the set up we have going. Yesterday we took a shower together and before we knew it we had started passionately making out and I got on my knees and sucked his dick and he ate me out. I actually am really sensitive so I don’t like being eaten out, but I let him anyway and some parts felt really good. Especially when he strayed away from my clit. He wanted to continue in the bedroom so we grabbed our towels and ran to the bed and he pulled my legs apart and continued. He told me I taste like whip cream. And then we had awesome sex. I love having sex with him. In the beginning I accidentally said “I love you” but I immediately apologized and he asked “For what?” and I said nvm and he smiled and kept going. Hopefully he just didn’t hear me. I said it pretty softly.
Later that day we went out for Dairy Queen with our friend Kaitlyn. Then we went to her house to watch a movie. I barely watched it.
Jordan has been super cuddly lately. And he’ll spoon me. Which he almost never did during our relationship. Anyway. Gotta go.