To get on with life now. How do i do that having lost everything? I gave my heart to my heart to the wrong one… ok… now he’s gone. Now the cancer. Radiation starts Tuesday. There was a delay cause Mr Buttons told me he would take me then never showed up to take me. So… there went another week. He cared absolutely nothing about my life… or that I could die. So…i have no idea what I’m supposed to do now. If and when I hey this treatment out of the way… I’m leaving… and never coming back to this state. I will disappear, like always.