what do you do when you fall in love with your best friend? he knows i love him, and he says he loves me too. it’s a thing best friends say. but he doesn’t know that i’m in love with him. he doesn’t know that i’ve been chasing after so much more than just a friendship for over five months. he doesn’t know how fast my heart starts beating when i see his name on my phone. he doesn’t know the feeling i get when i see him at school, how just looking him in the eyes feels like an adventure. he doesn’t know about the night i cried so hard i threw up when he came to me asking for girl advice. he doesn’t know any of these things, and i don’t want him to know. i don’t want to set myself up for more heartbreak and rejection. i hate keeping these things locked up inside of me, but i can’t bring myself to tell him. why did i have to fall for him so damn hard?
"even from far away, you could see it. they were drunk, but not from any type of beverage. they were drunk off each other. the way they laughed, the way they kept sneaking glances even though they both knew the other one was looking too. the way they curled into each other with a nervousness hidden behind a subtle excitement. even from far away, you could see it. they found each other utterly intoxicating."