what do you do when you fall in love with your best friend? he knows i love him, and he says he loves me too. it’s a thing best friends say. but he doesn’t know that i’m in love with him. he doesn’t know that i’ve been chasing after so much more than just a friendship for over five months. he doesn’t know how fast my heart starts beating when i see his name on my phone. he doesn’t know the feeling i get when i see him at school, how just looking him in the eyes feels like an adventure. he doesn’t know about the night i cried so hard i threw up when he came to me asking for girl advice. he doesn’t know any of these things, and i don’t want him to know. i don’t want to set myself up for more heartbreak and rejection. i hate keeping these things locked up inside of me, but i can’t bring myself to tell him. why did i have to fall for him so damn hard?

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