The fire within

It seems to have gone out. I cannot get up. I’m having such a hard time just staying upright. I don’t want to do this any more. There is so much more than just what is understood. The depression has once again crippled my every thought and move. The guilt weighs me down. The loneliness and isolation is all that comforts me only because I know I cannot be hurt by another in this place. The cancer hurts much more than i thought. The addiction is a constant nagging in my mind. I don’t know how to do it. I don’t know how to exist. I miss my friend. 

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  1. Depression is the worst thing I think that we can go through. It’s like being dead but having to keep on going through all the motions. It’s a deep, dark black hole. I know, I’ve been there and have called suicide hotline numerous times when I was younger.
    Would you see a doctor and take some medication. Zoloft is a simple SSRI which could help a lot. I think it is the best one. When you are depressed or empty, go to Jesus Christ and ask Him to be your Friend and to help you. He cares. I promise.

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