I know. The word piffing sounds pretty cheesy, but I can’t bring myself to write the version of the word that has two S letters instead of two Fs. You know what I’m talking about, journal. Don’t act like you don’t.
So today I’m trying to do some work. I’m not having an awesome day physically, but I didn’t want to complain about it on the usual support forum. Some folks hurt much more than I do, so I always feel awkward whimper-writing just because my pain threshold is so low.
I woke up with a sore and tight neck, muscle pains in my legs, and the same tight arm muscles that I’ve had for the past two weeks. It just isn’t going away. I can’t even bend my arm all the way to open it up. It really hurts when I reach. That’s why I’ve been halting on the car repairs. One of my parts came in, but I’m trying not to put any stress on this arm while it still hurts like heck.
I’m still spilling protein in my urine. In fact, the protein bubbles are getting worse. I want to go to the doctor next week, and that’s why I’m trying to earn some money working this week.
What makes all this even worse is that I have some religious guy sending me a bunch of Bible verses that I’ve already read, and this person keeps saying the same thing over and over again. He’s basically accusing me of not having enough faith, not saying the right words, and not doing the right thing. That really piffes me off because he doesn’t know me from a can of paint and has no idea what my relationship with the Heavenly Father is or how much I pray and do spiritual warfare.
I have faith. I’ve been praying. I’ve been battling. I’m still sick. Does it mean I’m doing something wrong? Absolutely not. In fact, I was listening to a teacher the other day who actually has the same illness that I have. This person disappeared for a year or so from teaching the Bible due to going in and out of the hospital. This person is a great teacher and seems to have plenty of faith. This person apparently still has to endure physical afflictions. This person is now back teaching again, and that’s what we have to do as believers. We deal with whatever comes our way, and we keep on going until the day when sickness and sorrow will be no more. We don’t automatically assume that someone else is doing something wrong or lacking faith just because the Almighty doesn’t remove that person’s affliction right away.