I feel like crap. I’m waiting for my next class, so I started watching Criminal Minds. I thought watching it would take my mind off things, but it’s not. I almost broke down at work this morning. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be here; I feel like this might be my last week. I just feel a strong urge to kill myself. I feel suicidal all the time. Before it would come and go, but now it’s all I think about.
I don’t feel suicidal right now, that’s the first in several days. I have a horrible headache though. I took some meds for it, so I’m hoping it kicks in soon. Class was boring but I got through it. I’m glad I got up and went to work and to class. I feel like my supervisor was acting passive aggressive towards me today, but maybe that was just me. I have been skipping a lot of work, so that could have been why. I didn’t mean to miss so much work, but I just haven’t been feeling good. So, it’s a huge accomplishment for me to have gotten out of bed and gone to work and class.
I just realized that I had my biology class tonight, and I didn’t go. I forgot about it and that it’s Tuesday. Oh well, at least I didn’t skip it on purpose. I’ll just set a reminder on my phone for next week. Unless it’s spring break; I can’t remember when spring break is.