I’ll tell you everything that I told my friend or so I call him a friend it started two years ago almost three years in October this year. I met my boyfriend Matt on a app called meet me I know it’s very rare you meet people on such crappy apps such as that one. But I got lucky I fell in love with him fast or to me it’s love he had a friend which was to me seemed like she was his best friend I think they went to the same school together, church and events. They’re parents knew each other for years still does my boyfriend use to compare me to her size saying I should be her weight size when we first started dating or I would ask him what size should I be. He’d always say hers and at first it didn’t really bother me than it started bothering me badly. I felt like he wanted to be with her instead of me because he would talk about her a lot and it made me wonder if I was right. That he did have feelings for his friend let’s call her Marie even when I first met my boyfriend and Marie was hanging out with my boyfriend’s adoptive sister. They followed us everywhere we walked always talking to Matt about stuff and Marie at the place we ate at. My boyfriend’s parents payed for our food it was his parents, Marie, his brother, his adoptive sister, my brother, brother’s fiance, boyfriend and I. Marie kept saying I know Matt’s favorite this or that over and over like it was a competition between her and I against being with my boyfriend. I’ll just copy and paste what I sent to my friend and paste it below it’d be a lot a lot easier trust me.
I felt like slapping the shit out of him staring at her picture for to long but that’s not the worse of it. Last year he said after thanksgiving he started going to a new church so he started going to his old one and the new one as well he met this girl named Brittany but he said he was just joking about the whole thing. He told me he liked her and that he didn’t love me anymore that he wanted to be with her and that I made him go to that church because of how my family acted toward him when he came down for thanksgiving. He told me that that girl’s family would probably do more for him than my family ever would and that she was closer to him he hurt me when he said all those things it made me really really believe he was going to break up with me for her or mess around behind my back. I know he wouldn’t be the type of guy to mess around behind my back but I don’t know he’s there i’m a hour in a half away from him and it makes me think like did he ever talk to her like we(him and I) talk or has he ever talked to other girls like we do behind my back I don’t know and when he was up here he got on my phone on facebook and than signed off. I wanted so badly for him to leave his facebook on there or at least the password so I can log on it I mean he tells me there’s nothing to hide but how should I know that and when I went to go see him last August I asked him about the whole Brittany thing he burst out laughing like it was some funny joke or stupid to him. I felt upset and like why the fuck would you lie to me if it isn’t something I mean I don’t know i’m just scared thinking about these kind of things because I do wanna be with me and I don’t wanna lose him but on the other hand I think what if hes not the one.
tell me what you think.
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