[218] ~*Mon – 03/12/18*~

[10:13 pm]

This is torture! I kinda want to go to the hospital and don’t. I’m a bit scared as this isn’t normal to have such problem with mucus for this long. The antibiotics I’m taking doesn’t seem to be doing anything beside making me puke some mucus. I’ve been puking a lot of mucus but my throat is always still full afterward. My chest is still tight, my head still hurts and I’m always drained. The main reason why I’m getting so scared is that I always said I would die at the age I am at now and here I am.. sick. Not good! 

I hadn’t talked to this friend for a while and hub ended up telling her about me being this way for a few months so she texted me saying I had to go to the hospital which I totally agree with but I’m so tired that I don’t want to go spend the next 10 hrs waiting there. I’d go tomorrow but come on, it’s my only day off, I don’t want to be spending it in a hospital. I also haven’t took the full week of antibiotics so I’m telling myself that I should wait till I’m done taking those in case it works but I doubt. I told her I’d go to the hospital Thu after work if I’m still feeling this way. I still blame the flu shot for this. I never take it and decides to take it and I get sick like I never did before. It could also be because I was getting close to that age I always said I’d be dying at. Who knows?! I’m just sorta scared to go to the hospital and find out what’s wrong. People are saying that I might have pneumonia. I have no clue.

Anyways, as always, I was tired when I got out of bed this morning. I actually didn’t look at the time for what I think is the first time. The alarm actually scared me when it went off and I jumped out of bed. I kinda laughed at myself. Haha! I was still hoping my client would cancel as she almost always does. I was on my way to get her when I got a call from the office to say she was cancelling. Really?! She cancelled two mins before the time so I was almost at her place when I got the call. Bleh! I turned around, came back home and went to bed. I had a really hard time sleeping. I had set my alarm for a certain time so I could eat before going back out but I ended up pushing it and got out of bed at the last min. My last client ended up cancelled as well so when I was done with my one client, I went and got my friend and we went to the Casino for the buffet. I know better so I didn’t bring my purse in with me but I did bring $5 and played it. Of course, we both lost.

I’ve been super tired all day and all I want to do is go to bed but come on, I can sleep in tomorrow and I’d be going to bed even earlier than when I have to get up in the morning. So I basically have been forcing myself to stay up and I don’t really know why I’m doing it.

I am not doing anything and I feel exhausted. My friend said it was because I was sick and more than likely having a lack of oxygen. Blah! All I know is that I feel miserable.

That lawn is also still on my mind and it’s driving me crazy cause I can’t do anything about it right now. I hate how I always want things done and fix right away. I also haven’t heard from the collision center for my car. The guy had said they should have the parts last Fri and I’m still waiting. I know we had some storms last week so maybe it was delayed but yea, I’m still waiting on that.

Now I’m debating on if I should watch another episode of Desperate Housewives or head to bed. I’m so tired that I don’t even know if I’ll be able to read once I lay in bed. Maybe I should just head to bed and try to get some rest. My throat is just bugging me cause it’s full of mucus and I’ve already puked some earlier, I really don’t want to go and puke some more. I just want it gone!!!





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