I’m struggling real bad at the moment and I have no idea why. I can’t get a grip of things.
Last week I pretended to be sick for 3 days as I couldn’t face work. Each evening I said to myself I would go in the next day but in the morning I couldn’t bring myself to do it.
It’s been worse since January, I’ve felt on a downward slope since then.
I struggle to get myself to work in the morning. I struggle once I’m at work. I struggle to come home from work. I struggle to go to bed every night. I struggle to get up everyday. I struggle to look in the mirror. I struggle to not gorge on snacks while my wife is her. I struggle to reply to text messages. I struggle to think about the future. I struggle to see my place in the world. I struggle with a constant voice telling me I’m not good enough. I struggle at having to overthink every situation. I’m exhausted at the rate my brain works. I can’t do this any more.