I feel terrible today. I was so, so sleepy this morning. I couldn’t fall asleep last night, so of course, I’m exhausted today. I am actually doing a little better than I was earlier. I still have a headache, though. I had it all day yesterday, too. Ugh. My wonderful day off on Friday for the 7th grade field trip is not happening- I have fucking 8 kids all day that are even going. 8 out of 40. And of course the assholes are not going. I am exhausted, frustrated, you name it. I don’t know what to do with those 7th graders. I honestly have no clue what to even do next. I am literally making it up day by day.
I got on Tinder last night to delete the app, and ended up not. I ended up seeing that surgeon that I went out with a while back and he messaged me. I am supposed to meet him for coffee tomorrow. I’m not sure why I would even do that since he was kind of an ass before. We went out one time and he said all the “oh, let’s do this again,” bullshit, and then never called me. I texted him- which I never, ever do- I always just let it go when I never hear from them again, but I was curious about this one, and I figured what could it hurt to ask. He’s the one that told me he just didn’t think I was very “sexual”. Uh, what??? I don’t even know what that means? Did he think I was going to start climbing all over him in a restaurant the first time we met? What the absolute fuck? I’m not at all clear why he thought he knew that about me. Anyway, now that I’m recalling more, I think he then said something about he would give me a call, or be in touch, or some shit, but he never did. Why did I agree to meet him again??? Now I have to start worrying about what I’m going to wear and how I’m going to get my shit together to meet him after school. Ugh. And that’s why I haven’t been on a date since I moved back here. It’s just too much trouble.
I really need to see Lisa today. I am a disaster.