[221] ~*Thu – 03/15/18*~

[2:57 pm]

Once again, I’m fighting with myself to not go to bed. I’m currently home as I’m in between clients and gosh, do I ever want to go lay in that dear bed of mine. My throat is so full of mucus that I don’t know what to do anymore. I just took my last pill with my lunch and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better at all. I was trying my very best not to puke any mucus before I was done work cause I know it drains me but I just had too cause it was suffocating me. I had a real hard time working it, so it would come out, so I exhausted myself for nothing as nothing really came out. I want to go try again right now but I’m already so drained. I really don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep going. I called my family doc to get an apt and he can only see me on the 27th so that’s still a week and a half away. I hope that I won’t need the apt, that it will be gone by then. I just hope I can survive up to there as well, I might end up going back to a clinic but I would rather see my doc. I’d just like to have an inhaler to see if that would help cause I get out of breath easily with this.

Anyways, as always, I’m a bit pissed. I know I get pissed for, kinda, nothing but I’m still pissed. Hub went and took my car in this morning so they gave him a rental which is…. a damn huge ass truck. Like really?! I obviously can’t use that with my clients, most of them won’t even be able to get in it and it’s a huge ass truck so that’s gonna be expensive on gas and I’m on the road all darn day. I know I have the other car and hub will be taking the truck but still, come on. That’s the only thing they had available right now so they told him to call tomorrow to see if something else was available if we still needed a rental. They said the car should be ready tomorrow but I don’t see that happening if they have to paint the part unless they already did and it just needs to be put on which I doubt.

I’ve been playing a bit on that dancing game that I downloaded on my phone and I’m still not sure about it. I really enjoy it but I don’t know how it makes me feel. It sorta makes me feel sad cause I really miss the good old days when I used to play on the PC and made a bunch of friends online. I currently have none cause I don’t play anything. I just played a few games and it actually made me super sad cause the song that played was one that I used to play on the PC. It just brought back some memories. I kinda miss a few people from that time in my life and sorta wish I would of stayed in touch with some but I always wanted my online and real life to be separate and not mix so I never stayed in touch with online friends. When I left the gaming world, I left the people behind as well.

Blah! The office just called to say I was loosing some hours next week. This totally sucks! My hours are always a darn roller coaster and it’s annoying. That said, I doubt I will be able to get my Wed off any time soon.




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