You know that feeling when you KNOW someone does not want to be around you? Well that’s how you make me feel. You make me feel as if I am a bother to you, as if I am the most annoying person ever. Is that who I am to you now? The most annoying person ever.
We used to be able to be in the same room for hours without conversations and yet that made me feel great, that made me feel so great. The friendship we had was undeniably the best I ever had. Probably the best friendship I will ever have because it was genuine and not forced; it was innocent and we were young adolescents. Maybe I am just speaking from my now feelings but I don’t know if I can ever have a friendship like the one we had growing up, with anyone else. I mean who knows, my feelings and views of our friendship might have been different and I had not realized it how you saw us?
I just wish you knew I don’t blame you. I never did and I never will because I know people grow apart. That’s a cycle of life. That’s just one roller coaster ride we hopped onto and I have my days where I wish we never had to come across that ride. But the thing is we did and it sucks. Oh my goodness it sucks so bad these days.