He finally chilled out and he kept telling me he cared for me a lot and didn’t want me to leave…..he wanted me to stay with him. I just can’t seem to escape him. I have nowhere else to go and no money. We don’t even have any groceries and I can’t go to a food pantry because I don’t have a New Mexico ID. I don’t know what to do. He won’t actively search for a job. I don’t know what to do. Maybe I should go to an Al-Anon meeting. Maybe I’ll learn to deal with him and his shit. 2 weeks ago he was a happy drunk and easy to deal with. Something snapped in him and now he’s a mean drunk. I’m not even sure what happened last night. All I know is I started to toss and turn pretty bad which is really not unusual for me at some point during the night and it usually doesn’t last long. I sat up in bed and he accused me of tossing and turning on purpose to keep him from coming to bed. And he started yelling at me again. I ended up leaving for a while and he started begging me to just come back. I shouldn’t have. I should have gone to a shelter.