I use to have this best friend at work. We were always together! At work, and outside of work. She was there for me in my darkest moment. When I needed someone the most. She was my rock and I would be eternally grateful for that but in the last few years, something changed. We both moved from one department to another one (the same) and since then, things have been different. We slowly started to drift away. I am still unsure of what happened but we were still having lunch together with a few other girls from our new department and at one point (about a month before Christmas 2 years ago) her and the other girls kept talking about a craft night they had planned at my “best friend’s” house. Only to find out i was pretty much the only one not invited. Her excuse was that she didn’t think i would want to go. I call it bullshit but whatever. If you don’t want me at your craft night, at least shut up about it when I’m around. Anyways, she ended up inviting me but I didn’t need her pity. I stopped having lunch with them and at one point she asked me if everything was ok with me. I never told her how I felt and I should of. But now its too late. I use to think that I lost a friend but I didn’t. I realize now that she is a toxic person. And it is not only because she pretty much dropped me when something better came along but because she is not all that good of a person. She will talk and gossip about anyone given the chance. It doesn’t matter who the person is. Family, a long time friend, a coworker. Any chances she has, she will talk behind peoples back. I often wonder what she said about me when I wasn’t around. I even had a few people tell me to be careful hanging out with her. But i like to give people the benefit of the doubt and make my own opinion. I also don’t seem to fit in with the people I am working with now. I am ok with it though. I kinda feel like an outcast most of the time. Black hair, metal head, tattooed girl. I just find it funny how none of them  seems to be their own person. It seems like they need to impress one another. If one is a runner, then the other one needs to be a runner. Yesterday they went to a workout class  during lunch(I didn’t go because I already workout 6 days out of 7) and this morning, they were all comparing where they were hurting and who was hurting the most. Meanwhile, I’ve been working my ass off for the last 3 months and I don’t feel the need to let the world know how in pain I am. I also have those people on my facebook. You know when they workout and when they fell off the wagon because the sweaty selfies post stops. LOL 

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