He told me last night he was going to try to quit drinking so much. I pray that he does slow down. He told me something else last night that’s a little disturbing….when it’s quiet he hears his mother’s voice calling for him and she’s still alive. I fear he may be bipolar or some other mental illness that needs to be diagnosed. I used to hear voices when my bipolar was out of control but I don’t any more. He claims to be ADHD and he realizes that he’s self medicating. He says that he thinks all mental illness is fake and is just an excuse. I wish there was some way I could get him in to get some sort of treatment to fix whatever is causing the problem. I guarantee he will have a new outlook on life. I still fight with the suicidal thoughts but I know I won’t act on them at this point. Even when I look at myself in the mirror I still see such sadness in my own eyes.
I think if he gets some treatment for the mental issues he will feel a lot different and will quit trying to self medicate. But I cant force him or do it for him. He’s going to have to want it.