I keep searching for answers in men. Even when I know the answer is in myself. The reality of it is, Im inpatient. And on top of it no one is even trying to hook up with me… have I gotten desperate… ugly…fat? I know I need to do me and work on me for more than one reason.. However. What about right now? How do I fill my voids right now? Sure I can read write, study, meal prep, work out ride horses etc but at the end of the day I’m still alone. And being lonely is something that destroys me mentally.