So I kinda need a bit of help, I’ve got a few problems and even as I type this I feel like I should be ashamed. So I feel like I need to start my life up a bit. I’ll explain my problem
im a 20 year old high school graduate, and honestly I feel like I never should have graduated. I’m sucky at math, history, writing/English, science and physical education. The only subject I ever got an A in was art, but as it stands now I feel like I’ve failed even that.
i tried making it as an artist but I never really got all that much support or even attention, often I’d plan big projects only to stop them because no one really cared, turns out that my dreams are anywhere close to being a reality ( I’m sorry but that’s just how it feels, I’m trying to be honest not winey)
with the end of my high school career and with no funds or applications to college set into motion I quickly became the human equivalent of a cat: moody, sleeping and eating all day, and only really doing what I want to do. Now for the first few months that was fine by me, but as months turned to years(2), it started becoming very depressing and that depression broke free one of my deepest repressed facets of my personality: anxiety, with this new road block, my current problems had started to worsen. I never could get my drivers license with it and without a license and me living in the middle of no where, I haven’t had a chance to better myself.
Now that I have reined in some of my anxiety ( not enough to drive) I want to get my life in order, I want a job, an online on preferably, one that requires maybe just a high school degree, I’m not the smartest cookie but I feel like I must have some place in the world,
i still doubt my self now, writing this, I…… I feel like I don’t have a place in the world
Like I’m not good enough to belong to it, like if I get a job someone else will just replace me.
ive wasted your time, sorry….
please go enjoy life to the fullest
go be happy to have a license, a job, a dream , a life ….
dont waste you time with a crack in the sidewalk like me.