Tomorrow , it will be 6 months since I quit smoking cold turkey after 12 years of being a smoker. I’m so proud! Thats one thing about me that I really like, that when I put my mind into something i always get it done.
It wasn’t easy but it started becoming bearable as each day passed by. I enjoy being a non-smoker! I am amazed at how much air goes into my lungs, and how food tastes so much better and how my hair and skin feels good.
However, this week has been unbearable. Funny!! No rhyme or reason why but I’ve craved a cigarette more in the past 1 week than I have for the past 6 months. Yes, I smell better and breathe better but bloody miserable and not getting any better. Starting to reason with myself that the nicotine cravings are for a life time. This sucks so bad! I’m going to have to fight hundreds more moments like these through out my life.
So I’m tryinh to look at it this way, “cravings won’t do me any harm – but smoking will – so as long as I don’t give in, cravings don’t count”. Yes!
I’ve been waking up occasionally at night feeling scared, lost and not being able to fall back to sleep. That was one of the withdrawal symptoms I had for first 4 weeks when I quit and feels like its coming back. I’m on the edge all the time, very impulsive too. Anxiety is so much more worse.
But I won’t give in to it. I’m trying to stay as determined and focused as I can be because Cancer is no fun.