New Beginnings

They say your high school years are the best years of your life, they forget to tell you about the zits, the hormones, the lies and all the bullshit people put you through for their own gain. The truth is people aren’t as humane as they are made out to be, many can turn their emotions off for other people like that, something I’ve learnt the hard way recently. People can’t be trusted no matter how much you love them or they love you, which makes me question what’s the point in relationships. The impression you probably have of me right now is a young girl who likes to feel sorry for herself and bitch, in which case you’re spot on, but I like to think I’m a little more than a girl with a few daddy issues and some homework to do.

I didn’t join this site to bitch or complain but to share my experiences as a teen in the 21st century, and who knows, maybe one day future me will be able to look back on this and hopefully will be able to talk about how much the have grown as a person since then.

Since I’m new and have some time to spare I suppose I should tell you a little bit about myself.

I think the word/phrase my friends would use to describe me is a “people pleaser”. I think this is partly due to my anxiety, I’d hate for anyone to ever think of me as selfish or rude and always like being appreciated and praised, but I mean, who doesn’t? I’m extremely shy although I love people and am extremely extroverted, I love debating (arguing) and learning. I always do my best to challenge my beliefs and to try my best to be a better person. Of course that sometimes doesn’t always work out – for example when you fall for your mum co-worker (but that’s another story for another day), or when you’re currently in your own web of lies which has resulted in the police being involved and receiving death threats just to save your “best friends” ass (once again, another story for another day – and no, I’m no longer friends with this person, yes, this is what sparked the over dramatic rant at the start of this post). I dance, and I want to be a lawyer someday, although good luck to me because my social skills are shit and my grades are even shitter.

I think that’s it for today, I’m off to eat my feelings and watch some trash TV. I have a friends birthday party tomorrow, so I’m currently mentally preparing myself for the shit show that’ll probably go down. If you’ve gotten this far then I’m impressed, and extremely worried for your sanity. Until next time I guess?

Lilian xo

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