I have a question. have you been coming to logan and cody in their dreams? I heard zonnie and lily had dreams about you too. Last night I kept seeing your face. I couldn’t get your face out of my brain. I close my eyes and I see you. I hear you. Last night I kept seeing you. I saw your face at the hospital. I feel like its PTSD or something. I just see your fucked up face and it’s horrible. It’s not fair and doesn’t make sense. Why does such a horrific things happen to someone like YOU. YOU of all people. I felt like I was in the middle of a living nightmare. Lime I AM in the middle of a living nightmare. I guess I just don’t understand. If you are seeing them in their dreams why not me? Why not ashlynne? I want to see you. I want to know you are OK. I’m not asking every night i’m asking for one time. Just once, just tell me you are okay and in a good place. I would love to know where you are, if you are anywhere, is there an afterlife? Is there a heaven? If there is I know you are there. What’s it like? Do you get all the food you want, the sports, tv, movies, fun, is it incompatible to humans to comprehend where you are? I know I won’t get answers I just want to know you’re doing well , you are ok, and happy.
I love and miss the fuck out of you.
your favorite sibling