As a single mom it is really hard to juggle full-time job, home maintenance, and my daughter yet still take time for myself. I joined an activity group. I mainly joined it to make friends. All my girl friends are married with older kids. They are focused on their kids activities. The one single friend I have is in a relationship and has no children.
I went to my first event, which was a horror movie night. I met a nice women E. I also met the host. I really did not meet more because we were all focused on the movies. The 2nd one I went to was at Ts house. It was mardi gras themed. I wore a beautiful white mask. I met some more people. On women, L I’ve become very good friends with. She has no kids, but understands the whole kid thing. I also met a guy J. However, he was interested in L. Which is fine because the host, his friend T sent me a message afterwards to hook up with him on facebook. I did. With just one answer to his valentine question on FB all of a sudden we were talking all the time. I went out with him on valentines day.
We said we would only be fwbs, but as we saw each other at other events and I spent the night with him it as bloomed into a relationship. Last weekend he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. I’ll admit this is my 2nd relationship since divorce and I’m still scared. I have a young daughter and am very protective. I’m 45 and have been divorced almost 4 years. He is older and has older boys. He’s told me multiple times he is still hurt from his ex-girlfriend, yet he tells me he is ready for a relationship. I do have my doubts about this relationship. He makes me laugh and smile all the time. Sex is great between us. Its the best sex I’ve had in a long time. He is already planning on us doing things during the summer together. We will still attend these group events, but as a couple.
I’m worried I’ll get attached and he’ll break my heart. I broke up with a guy who finally told me he loved me and wanted a solid relationship with me. I did this because I wanted to be with T. I felt more whole with him. Did I do the right thing? Should I have stayed with the other guy even though I was not happy? It was solid. It was safe.
I have to also think of my daughter. If this new relationship goes strong is he right for her? Does he really want to be with someone that has such a young child?
So many questions, not too many answers. I try not to analyze too much and just go with the flow. I focus on work, my house, and my daughter to help with it. T has a very strong personality and there is something that draws me in. He is kind and passionate. I really want this to work between us.