Life sucks right now

At this moment, I am sitting in the tub trying to bring my blood pressure down. These past two weeks have been a rollercoaster ride from hell. My husband is an addict and, yes, he has some major faults. He is facing some jail time after being caught with a syringe and pill about 5 years ago. Yeah and the courts have put it off this long. I’m not going to lie. We had plans to skip state and head to FL to live. Not the best plan I know. My mother had gotten a job offer there and we had all planned to head down with her and just start over. It was her idea but she will never admit it…. We had been paying the mortgage on their second home and living there but the plans were to sell that place and use the money to buy a home in FL. So we moved in with them. She had us get rid of EVERYTHING! Our electronics, our cats, our snakes, all of our furniture, it’s all now gone. So here we sit at my mom’s with nothing to our name and she decides to tell me that now she thinks it’s best for my husband to serve his time. Ok, that’s fine. Also, if he doesn’t serve his time he isnt welcome to live with us in FL. I kept all of this to myself because she is known to go through these mood spells. My husband was supposed to change the brakes in her car for her on Sat. I get home from work and she tells me that she got the brakes for him to do. I just gave her a “are you kidding me?” look. Because, seriously, he is good enough to change your brakes but not good enough to live with us in FL. I say nothing, go into our room and let him know that she has the brakes for him. He gets up and gets his shoes on and in the two minutes that it took for him to do that she has already sent my stepdad out to take the brakes back and is yelling and screaming that she wants him out of her house! All because I made a face….. An aruement ensues in front of my daughter which I attempted to stop because my husband and I have never even argued in front of her. Yelling and screaming to the point of my daughter screaming. It has been 4 days and I am stuck here at her house with my daughter while my husband jumps from friends house to friends house because she has literally left us with nothing. I am almost 100% positive that this has been her plan all along. I even spoke with my dad today and he said the same thing… I’m just so tired at this point. The games have to stop. I guess my only option now is to save up some money and find a place and start over. It is just aweful that he may be getting jail time soon and we cannot spend hardly any time with him beforehand. Eughhhhh…. I hate situations being out of my control but I am sure that God has brought me to this point for a reason. I cannot wait to see the miracle that comes out of it. 

One thought on “Life sucks right now”

  1. Hang in there. Its a rough patch, and you will get through it! Focus on saving money and your daughter. It WILL smooth out.

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