After: Day 380

It’s been over a year, why do I still feel this way? Today I did something I didn’t think I would ever do, I hacked your Snapchat. I woke up missing you this morning, then I saw you at school and it made it that much worse. I read through all the messages between you and your girlfriend. As crazy as that sounds, I feel a little better. The relationship you two have isn’t healthy, not that my slight obsession with you is. I wish I could say I feel nothing when I think about you. Sometimes I don’t, I miss you, even just being able to say hi to you would make me feel better. You were my best friend for two years, I lived with you, we planned a future together. For awhile you were everything I ever wanted, or was it just that I wanted a companion for life and you were just at the right place? I don’t want to be known as that crazy ex-girlfriend, I just want one last conversation, I want to say I’m sorry. I just don’t know anymore. I want to be ok, but I’m hurting, I don’t know why I feel this way. 

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