He’s starting in again….really bad. He won’t let me leave. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I need help but Murray won’t survive the streets if we go because I don’t have any money and I’m out of gas. The ac is out on the car. I just wish he would pass out already. I’m so terrified I don’t know what I’m going to do. It’s going to be another week before I get my next disability check. I don’t think my car will make it back to Dallas and even then I’m going to have to live on the streets with Murray and it’s coming into summer there too. What am I going to do? I can’t afford to live alone and I’m afraid to stay with Ian and afraid to get involved with another man. I can’t go into a shelter with Murray.