My mind is currently feeling like goop. No matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to concentrate on the things I have to do. I want to read like I used to but every time I begin I struggle to finish. I don’t know what has changed. Though it seems as if everything has. I want to do things but know not where to begin. What if I try and inevitably fail? Then what? My journey has only just begun though I have no energy to carry through nor can I fabricate the will to power me through. I know that I cannot give up. Not after all that I’ve put in and fuelled to reach this far.
Giving in now will mean loosing everything and I’m not ready to loose what I barely have.
I don’t know what I’ll do in my life going forward but I know that before I do anything I must first conquer my mind and keep it on the right track.
What I do hope is that I am able to make the choices that’ll help me in the long run, even if they aren’t the easiest to see through.