Today was a Good day

Today has been a good day my first really good day in a few weeks. It’s been almost 3 weeks since my boyfriend broke up with me. It’s still very very painful especially last week when I found he’s kinda seeing someone else, I had to find out through another friend. We talked about it and worked a few things out. He says he still loves me, that he wishes it didn’t end with us, that he should have handled things better. Yes, he’s with someone but says he hasn’t moved on, that she’s just an outlet for him dealing with what happened with us. As of right now, he said if they don’t work out he wants a second chance. In my opinion, it’s not going to work out she’s already trying to control him. She made him block me on Facebook cause she wouldn’t shut up till he did, but we still talk almost every day. He’s working out of state still and is over 2 1/2 hours away from me, so I don’t understand what her problem is. Is she really that threatened by me, I’m guessing yes because she knows he still loves me. Sorry about her luck he already promised he will stay in my life, he was a father figure to my kids for 2 years and says their his kids. He also promised them he will be there and he asked them if he can be in their lives. My kids have been through a lot in their young lives and let down more times than any child should be. Hurting me is one thing but hurting my kids is something I won’t tolerate and will not forgive or forget . If she thinks she gonna come in between him and our kids (what he calls them) she has another thing coming, he called me momma bear for a reason. So my mood and attitude to this whole situation changed because I know for a fact he still loves me if he didn’t why would she react like that all cause we’re friends. I thought I was insecure but I never asked anyone to block or stop talking to someone. By her doing this I realized she will never measure up to the woman I am, which does make me feel proud of who I am. So in some crazy way, she’s kinda the reason for my good mood. Him and I may end up together if that’s what is meant to be but in the end, she’s not going to be around for long. I pray every night for him, for our future and happiness, but more importantly, I pray for guidance. Guidance to the path I’m supposed to follow and leave everything in God’s hands, letting things fall however they may fall. I do believe deeply him and I are meant to be and will believe so until I’m proven wrong by God. I believe he is the missing piece to our family, he was a blessing from God himself. Is he perfect no, who is perfect, no one that’s who. And as someone who suffers from anxiety that was a hard lesson for me to learn, because I believed if things weren’t perfect it wasn’t good enough. I am slowly changing my thought process, thanks to a great therapist, hypnosis, aromatherapy, an OTC anxiety med, and the support of some wonderful friends I know I can overcome this and anything else life throws at me.  

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