[327] ~*Fri – 08/03/18*~

[10:03 pm]

I’m at the last episode of Desperate Housewives and I just want to cry. Actually, I just kinda did. The end of the episode I just watched kinda made me tear. I hate when a show ends, I feel like a part of me is also ending. I know the show has ended long ago but I’m just watching it now so yea. I’m not even sure what I’ll be watching once I’m done with this show as it feels like I’ve been watching it for ever. I have a few shows that have started a while back and I haven’t started so I know I’ll have something to watch but gosh. I don’t understand why I had stopped watching this show cause it was so good. I don’t know if I want to watch the last episode now and have it really end or keep it for later. I’m so silly!

Anyways, before I get into other things, I think I forgot to talk about the movie me and my friend went to see on Tue. Maybe I talked about it but I have a feeling I haven’t and I’m too lazy to go read what I wrote so I’m just gonna write about it again if ever I did write about it. We went to see Mamma Mia! Here We Go Again and it was just amazing. I really enjoyed the movie but I was very disappointed that we didn’t see Meryl Streep more. I know she’s dead in the movie and it goes back in time to where she was younger and got pregnant but still, I was hoping we’d get some flashback of when she was older where we would actually see Meryl Streep and not the actress playing Donna’s younger version. We got to see her at the very end but it wasn’t enough for me. I enjoyed the movie but I think the first one was better. I also had mix feelings about going to see this movie as I had seen the first one in theater with my best bud. I wasn’t really thinking about him and then suddenly I was thinking about him during the movie and I got chills when they played the Mamma Mia song and the Dancing Queen one which they also played in the first movie. That said, I took it as a sign that my best bud was watching the movie with me.

The house mortgage just went up again another $20/month. This is getting too much. I’m getting scared that we won’t be able to afford the house if this keeps happening. I’m pretty sure the house went up like $100 in the past year. We just renewed for the month of Nov and kept it on the open thing cause the guy at the bank said it was the best bet right now but I’m not too sure anymore as it just went up again. Maybe we should of picked the closed one. 

That pinch nerve is drying me crazy, it sometimes hurts and I don’t remember that part from the last time. Maybe I really need to go see the doc about it.

My client wants to go to the beach tomorrow and it’s pissing me off. She’s been wanting to go almost every week and I need to stop making myself sick for her. I thought she wouldn’t ask anymore as I took her in the afternoon last week. I just hope so hard that it will rain tomorrow so we won’t have to go.

I feel like the car is making a noise from the front but I’m not sure. I feel that I’m hearing something but when I turn everything off to listen, I don’t really hear anything. I’m just so discouraged from everything.

It would of been nice weather to mow the lawn when I got back from work but I only had about half an hour before sunset so not enough time to even finish the front so I didn’t do it. It’s driving me crazy as the  lawn is getting pretty long once again. I just want it mowed as I had told myself I wouldn’t let it get long again but here I am. It’s just always so damn hot.

So yea, right now I just want to sit in a corner and cry. I’m still debating on going to mom’s place Mon. I kinda want to go and not. I just need to run away from my life so I can’t wait for our vacation time in Sep. It’s always one step forward, two steps back.

Alright, I guess I shall get it over with and go watch that last episode.


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